Another one eliminated! I don’t even know how to feel anymore. We get close to a living kidney donor only to be disappointed again. Disappointed. Such a weird word when we know in our hearts that we have a good good Father! Not disappointed in a particular person or in the system. Disappointed in time. Time. Another weird word because it’s relative right. A thousand years is like a day to God. The truth of the matter is that I am grieving our simple life. Simple, another relative word, I know. But I am human and I am grieving vacation time with my family, pools,oceans, or just driving around Texas like we did last summer before our lives were struck with kidney failure. Who knew that Eli would be tethered to a port in his chest (which means NO WATER) and we all would be tethered to Knoxville (dialysis for Eli every other day makes it tricky to travel for extended periods). Eli seems to take it well from what we can gage. But I can only imagine that seeing one brother come home from a fun trip to DC and the other brother roll in from travel baseball has to take its toll. 😪 We are so thankful for those who have gone through the process to see if they are a match for Eli. We still believe the perfect kidney is out there. If you would like to know the ins and outs of the process, one of our friends who went through it is willing to talk to you about it. We can get you in contact with her if you are interested in finding out more. Or you can go to this website to find out more. https://www.vanderbilthealth.com/transplant/50306
For now we trust that God is in control and we learn to function in the new normal knowing full well that it is actually drawing our family closer together!